0.6 The sum of existence  (Page 2/3)

How a person responds to the world originally is the core of their nature. This core never changes because you forever remember that response (consciously or unconsciously) who you are is just a building up of more and more responses over that one. You are still the same person you were when you were born, however, because you remember how it was that you first responded to the world and all your new responses are primarily based off of your old ones. This means that you are going to be trying to invoke the same feelings in yourself forever. How you originally felt when you came into the world is how you originally thought about yourself, your original understanding of who you are. This makes it not necessary for understanding of oneself to be completely conscious, because you understand yourself to be who you want to be otherwise you wouldn’t have any feelings because you wouldn’t agree with who it is you are. Someone can dislike something they did, but when they did that action they purposefully did that action weather or not they did it consciously or unconsciously, because if you do something it is coming from yourself, and you are pleased with who it is you are and who you are is going to determine how you respond to the world. If someone wished they were better at football then it might be a future goal to get better in the future, but they are still pleased with how good they are at football at that moment, because they are pleased with who they are as a person. If someone is not pleased with who they are then they are not in agreement with their existence. That is not possible because then you would cease to exist. Conceptually one has to exist as well as physically, and someone wouldn’t exist on a conceptual level unless they were capable of thinking and feeling. If you are capable of doing those things then you would simply (conceptually) feel and think what you wanted to feel and think. You exist, and your existence is a singular point. This point is so simple that it can feel and think what it wants. If reality doesn’t correspond with those thoughts and feelings then that fragile point would cease to exist. Therefore for anything to exist in reality all of reality must correspond with the thoughts and feelings of this tiny, tiny singular point.

Someone fundamentally feels what they want to feel and thinks what they want to think. People have control over their own actions and can direct what they do and think, those things then direct what they are going to feel. If someone does things and they don’t understand what feelings their action is going to cause then they are not a conscious being. They need to understand the full impact of what their actions are going to do to themselves otherwise they don’t fully understand their existence. If someone doesn’t fully understand their own existence then it would be possible for things to happen which should cause them to be fundamentally upset with themselves because those things are not in concordance with who it is they really are. Who it is they are is someone that wants to think what they want to think and feel what they want to feel. Reality may not correspond with those desires, however, if you don’t understand that reality is not corresponding with those desires. You will not be at odds with your existence if you don’t understand that you are actually, truly sad. If someone is at odds with their existence then they would cease to exist because conceptually their existence would no longer make any sense. So therefore the degree to which you understand yourself is also the degree to which you can control reality. If someone is fundamentally upset with something then they aren’t going to be getting what they want. This would not work because then there would be no meaning to their existence, and if there is no meaning to their existence then conceptually reality would no longer exist because otherwise they wouldn’t have been born in the first place. They wouldn’t have if they are capable of thought, which means then that they would conceptually view their existence as positive, and people tend to view themselves as good people otherwise they would have no meaning to their existence.