5.18 Life is tragic  (Page 10/15)

There are no happy feelings

I said before that you can look at any feeling and ask what other feelings it brings up. You can also break down any feeling into its parts. Let’s take the feeling you get of giving someone money. You feel bad that you are losing money, that is one feeling. The other person feels bad for taking your money, which causes you to feel worse because now you made them feel bad. See any action in life actually has feelings and emotions attached to it, just look at anything from all its angles to get all the feelings involved. Maybe the other person isn’t very nice and feels good that they are taking your money, maybe you have a lot of money and don’t care that you are losing a little. Etc. The main point is, for anything that happens in life, you are going to feel someway about it. However, in order for you to process the action that is happening in life you have to do work to convert that action into a feeling. This work means that there are no happy feelings, because even if the end result is a happy feeling, it took work to get there, and the work outweighs the happy feeling. I found this to be true looking at all feelings, don’t just look at the happy feeling, but when you look at the work involved you realize that you’re actually sad. Let’s look at computers, at first look you might say, sure a computer would cause good feelings, you have buttons you can press and little windows that pop up, that’s awesome! But you aren’t looking at the fact that you have to press the buttons and you have to think about the windows that pop up when they pop up, so both things which you perceived as happy are actually sad. Everything in life works like that, each and every feeling requires work. That brings about the point that everything is really physical, because when you think about the windows poping up the thinking that you are doing is work that your brain (which is physical) is doing. So everything requires physical work. So there aren’t really any feelings anyway, just physical stuff going on. And physical stuff requires work. Since everything is physical, and you are constantly moving and alive, you are constantly doing work. You’re never not doing work, you’re always moving, unless you’re dead. You’re always doing mental work as well. What makes it worse is that you can’t do “less work” mentally because then you start feeling bad, (if you just sat there and did nothing without thinking about anything) so you have to do work all the time. Life is work. Life is endless, nonstop work. That’s all it is. This work comes in various shapes and sizes. Doing a math problem is just the work of you analyzing numbers. Doing a chemistry problem is you doing the work of analyzing chemicals. Doing a history problem is you doing the work of looking at a certain place in time. You can’t do the same thing over and over either or you’ll get bored. That’s why a lot of jobs suck, because you have to do the same thing over and over, and it’s boring. Look harder for repetitions in life and you’ll find a lot. Take working at a cash register, although you may talk to people and although the variety of items you’re scanning may change, you are still scanning all day and standing in the same spot. What happens to your feeling when you stand in the same place all day? It gets more and more boring as time passes. Similarly doing any type of work (even if its easy) gets more and more boring as time passes. In fact, you can get bored just reading the word more over and over – watch – more and more and more and more and more and more boring. When you think about it most of life is just repeating stuff you’ve already done, just in very slightly different ways. Nothing is completely new. And when something is new, you have to do work to figure out what it is exactly, which takes away the novelty of finding something new. So since all the time you are doing work, and that work involves feelings and thought, all the time you are feeling something and thinking about something!